Stressed Again = Blog Time

So right now I am supposed to be writing an outline/thesis for my Torrey paper proposal that is due in less than 48 hours. But, as usual, I have too many thoughts flying through my head (this time about my paper topic), that I can’t figure out how to make any sense out of them and come up with a coherent outline or conclusion. I don’t have a clue how I will finish this in time for mid-rags… and yet, here I find myself blogging once again. And at 1 in the morning at that.

Don’t get me wrong; I WANT to write this paper and am excited for what I will learn through it. As you can probably tell through my past blogs, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about rest lately. So I figured I might as well continue my thoughts about rest in a paper focused on Sabbath Rest as Holiness. I am totally intrigued by the idea of Sabbath rest and have been wondering for months now whether or not Christians should practice the Sabbath commandment in this day and age or what it really means to "rest" on the Sabbath. I am so intrigued, in fact, that when I opened a book regarding the topic earlier today, I just couldn’t close it and (nerdy as it may sound) walked all the way from the library to the business building with my nose stuck in the book, not even looking up to see where I was going (I told you it was nerdy). But that’s a total tangent.

Anyway, as I have been researching for this paper, I have only been refreshed by what I am learning. Looking back through my past prayer journal entries, I’m realizing there have been a lot of times where I am just confused or disappointed with my relationship with God. Yes, I realize God has always been with me through it all… but I also realize how distracted I have been and unable to focus on Him. This is NOT refreshing. It has been refreshing, however, as I research about the Sabbath to recognize that I will never get things right, but that’s exactly why I can rest in God. There will always be reason for me to be disappointed with myself; I will never understand everything; I will never be perfect.

But God will.

In fact, He already has made everything perfect. He always has and He always will. And that gives me reason to stop what I’m doing and rest in His perfection, accepting it as my own through Christ. I can rest even when it isn’t the "Sabbath Day" because I know that God’s grace is always sufficient, no matter what day it is.