I’ve been reading parts of the Old Testament lately and getting a lot of things out of it (surprise, surprise). I don’t remember what chapter, but somewhere in Deuteronomy, Moses was telling the Israelites that they have nothing to fear with God on their side, clearing the way for them and rooting them on; He would always provide a way for their victory. They needn’t fear that they are too inadequate or that their enemies may succeed. Instead, they need to focus on a) obedience to God and b) glorifying God. After that, God will take care of everything.
Like the Israelites, I often feel too insignificant or inadequate; I feel that I am not the right person to be where I am or to have what I have. So often I feel that I don’t deserve to be in this honors program, that I may be the wrong person for it. I also don’t have a clue what I want to major in and I am so scared of the future. But as I read, I felt that God was really telling me that with Him on my side, I can’t go wrong. He put me in Torrey and He brought me to Biola for a reason; He is not going to leave me hanging! He continuously blesses me and clears the way that I might succeed, but not for my purposes – it is all for Him! Therefore, in my state of inadequacy (or, at least feeling that way), I think I need to obey God and focus on glorifying Him – He’ll take care of everything else… He has so far. Also, I need to realize that this is no formula, for there is no magical formula to success or control or significance (See "From Formulas to Circus Monkeys" post). Relationship with God is what I really need and that is something I need to develop on my own, without the help of formulas. Since He's on my side, I don't need to worry about anything for He will take care of everything.
3 comments:
Well said
Cheers on getting neat things out of the Old Testament!
That may be the most exciting thing that happened in Torrey so far.
can't wait for next semester!
Hannah
Indeed, the focus on my inadequacies often drive me to self-absorbed blindness. I think that a common misconception, especially amongst Christians, is that we have to constantly berate ourselves over how terrible we are. Yes, we fall infinitely short of God's glory... and yet He wants us to fix our eyes, not on the tainted mess of our lives, but on Him--with the knowledge that He is all we need. If we truly focus on Him, we will have nothing else to do but fall prostrate before Him, the Almighty God. Our lives will be but an afterthought as we understand that yes, our purpose is to live for and glorify Him. Our God is an AWESOME God. :-)
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